Some Thoughts on the drainage ditches on the side of the roads

So, we see those drainage ditches on the side of the highways and major roads. Why can we not send the water from each mile into a bigger ditch and then use a filter to clean the garbage out of it with a skimmer. It would clean the highways with little bit of help from highway cleanup crew. The big stuff would need a crew out cleaning it and the little stuff would flow into skimmers and then the skimmer would need dumped. The other purpose of flowing the water into a bigger ditch is that we could then use that water to water the plants that are on the side of the road. If they would put up some solar panels next to the ditch or even on it to block out the sun so algae don't grow all that fast, then they would have a ready source of energy to use a small pump.

My thoughts on Eve and Adam

 I think that men are stupid low lives that want to control all the things in the world. We beat everything that doesn't do what we want them to do. So, I started thinking that God is a woman who created Eve first, but Eve got lonely and so God made man to comfort her. But man being man he decided that he was better than Eve and started thinking he was created first, He started to beat her and make her into his image. When things would go wrong, he would blame Eve. I figure that he was the first to eat the forbidden fruit, and then made Eve taste it. Then when God saw that they had taken part into the forbidden fruit Adam said it was Eve that made him take part in her evilness. Where does everything come from men.

Men wrote the bible and have been trying to take control of all the world. We don't want anyone to tell us how to live our life, but we want to tell others how they should live their life. Life is a constant battle with people telling others how they should live and die. What if we just took and did unto ourselves what we want as long as it does not impede on someone else way they want to live. That would make life so much better for all and if someone does impede on another's life then we would have to do something. Life is short and all people seem to want to do is be better than the next. They keep trying to get bigger and better things then their neighbor. We should help each other with life not take it, not hurt it, and bring everyone to a better existence. One of the things I keep hearing from the bible is do unto others as we want done unto us. No one listens to that part. We want more and more and better and better before anyone else gets it. When they do get it then they want something that no one else has.

Remember, Life is short we should always take care of our own, not beat it down.

Social Media

 Now the government is telling us that we have no right to let our 16 years and younger children on social media even if it's our child and we say it is alright. Is it because they don't want our children to learn what goes on around the world and at home is wrong or right. I know they say it's to keep them from getting hurt, but that's part of growing up. How will they know if something is wrong or right that the government is doing. Not the way the government is thinking, they want the children to learn what they want them to know. Isn't that what the Russians started to do with their people and look at them now. They think their leaders are right and that the rest of the world is just like Hitler and trying to make a master race. Now our government is starting to do that, what's next the secret police. OH, wait Trump already has them. The people that will stop the government from doing its job are what a Russian government does. Start learning people before our rights have been taken. What's next killing off of the opposition to their power. Thats what Putin does. 

Remember that it is my God given right to decide what I should do with my own life. 

Abortion Rights

I've been thinking about it, and I think I have come across the reason why they don't want others to get an abortion. It's because of the beginning of the 20th century and the Middle Ages. The ones who don't think that there should be abortions believe that a woman has hysteria and need to be stimulated all the time, and they only way that stops is if they are pregnant. They do keep their mistress from getting pregnant that way they will always be ready for the person to stimulate them. And the reason in the Middle Ages is that they wanted legit heirs and didn't take responsibility for the mistresses' children that they sired. Now I know that there are women that don't want the abortion to happen that's because they can find out if their spouse is cheating on them. It's nobody's business but the women and her higher power to even think about abortion. She can either ask for help in the matter with friends and family but remember it is still her discission not ours. 

Years End

 Well another year is coming to a close and I have nothing really done about much, there are some projects that I have finished over the course of this year. I have had a lot of problems with cancer. Been living with my cats and dog, and partner. Things have been better for me then in the past. I have figured out that I don't like to go very many places. I am a home body and I like it that way. I still do things I just do very little. New problems have arisen that my doctors assure me aren't really that bad, we just need to keep an eye on them to prevent them from becoming a real problem. So, I have more checkups. I am having a difficult time working my project now, been going on for about two weeks my thumb where it meets the wrist seems to be inflamed. Everyone says that I should see a doctor, but it seems to me that they really don't want to really see what the matter is. I had a ct-scan I got at the beginning of the month it said that my lungs are good, but there is a question on my kidneys. they will not see me until next year to redo a ct-scan. Also, at the beginning of the month my jaw at my ear line started to hurt, but it stopped hurting as much, when my thumb started to hurt. I'm hoping for a better year next year. 

Happy new year yuns may it be full of blessings and good tidings, remember to have fun because life is to short. 

                Richard

More cancer

 

This is what the doctor did to me to remove some cancer from my head. This was taken in August; I'm just now getting it on here for selfish reasons. It's all healed up and there is a good scar. I tried to convince the doctor to give me a scar like Harry Potter's, but he said he couldn't if he could get it as small as he could.

I want to know how many people out there think that this new thing that the government is thinking about schools is doing to our kids. Is it to make the people stupid so they won't know that what they are doing is to keep us stupid. You know that their kids are in private school and are learning the stuff that they don't want the poor kids to learn. They must think that "We the People" are to stupid to realize that we don't know what is right for us. They are already starting to take our freedoms away it starts small, then gets more and more. They say that it is for the best of use. Like this thing about its safer for us to wear seat belts and they passed a law that makes us wear them. Why are we letting them say that only people with mental problems can't have guns. Especially when its the bad people that are doing the killing. Where are the guns that the people that don't care about human life are coming from. I will tell you it comes from those people that don't secure their guns to keep the evil people from getting so they say that they are law abiding people and its okay to just leave them lying around. I think that we should put those that have their guns stolen because they don't secure them should be treated just like the criminal that killed someone with it. They have already said if you sell something to someone that kills them then you kill them. So why can't do that to those that don't care who gets their gun.

What is the thinking

 So I looked up the word "Woke" and the only agenda is that all people should be free. The republican party seems to think that it means no one should be free. It started in the 1960's for the black people to have the same freedoms as the white people. So does that mean that the republicans does not see free people, and that the only free people should be the "white business MAN". It seems to me that they think that even the white woman is a servant to their white husbands. The other thing is this thing that a woman is not smart enough to decide what is right for her body and once again they seem to think that only the white business MAN should decide what should happen in America. They are afraid to have someone other than a rich white business MAN in power.

Yesterdays fishing trip

Well yesterday I tried to go fishing. I had to pick up the dogs meds at Walmart, that was not there. Then I went to my home pond and when I got all the way down to the water it started thundering so I had to leave. I decided that I would go today and woke up early and started my day, but I was having stomach problems and ate, feel asleep until noon. I had to take the plastic bags to Walmart and take some stuff to be donated once that was done then I came home at 3pm ate again and it was 5pm. So tomorrow I will get a chance to drown some worms.

The problem with the world

Well another day of crocheting away the time. I had a semi good day today the voices was all I heard. They were just repeating everything I said drove my about a foot up the wall. Just felt okay today not fair but not bad, just somewhere in between. To scared to go out and having whispering things in the ears that are repeats of what I said is not that bad of a day. Sometimes I wish that I was "normal", but really what is "normal". Maybe I am normal and the rest of the world is not. What if everyone has a problem, but are to afraid to say what it is. What if everyone has a problem with their mind and have told someone that was not paying attention, and marked it off as a the drinking or drugs. People should look for the underlining problem of drinking or drugs, they may find someone with something wrong and trying to cover it up. I drank like a fish before I was diagnosed. I heard voices and saw things that were not really happening and now they say that it is schizoaffective. I was also molested while I was a kid no one new and I was ashamed that it happened. Why should I be ashamed when the assholes that did it to me think that they are good people. Why can no one seem to ask a kid what is on their mind, Oh I Forgot that "CHILDREN SOULD BE SEEN AND NOT HEARD." What a loud of bullshit. They just do not want what they are doing to the child to be known. Like with this thing that a female child that is being molested by her dad should have to get his permission to tell someone that her baby is his. That and Women have no rights except what her boyfriend to husband want her to think. Why is it Okay for men to get a vasectomy and it takes two kids and the husbands okay to let a female have her tubes tide. Is it because that men can have affaires and if a woman gets pregnant by someone other then her husband it is his right to kill her. What a load of shitheads that live in this world.

Ramblings

I have decided to stop playing magic. The locking up the board sent it over the tipping point. I go to club when I am feeling good, which is not often. I am working on three blankets, two doilies, a wash cloth, and a hat that I am working from top down, which is my practice for toe up socks. I probably have others that I can not remember. I finished one blanket that is 80 inches square {really I have not been finishing projects, I start one and soon it becomes a UFP (un-finished project)} but I finally got that one done started it 2 years ago. I really need to finish all the ones that have already started. I have been going through my stash and finding more projects and have not found everything yet I don't think.

The voices and the visions have been coming and going for the past year in a half. Some times I think my problems are the dead that have not pasted on. Sometimes I think that they are stuck here to torment me. Some are small like mice and squirrels and as big as people. They say that the animals do not know that they exist but I wonder if they are right about that, because the small ones would not be here like a big one. The voices seem to be coming from another room and there is no one here. Then when I am not guarded the visions invade my dreams. Some people would call them demons. I just call them my shadows.

Time for some random thoughts. Why do people ask why the sky is blue? When does time end, when we pass on or when the universe ends? I think we go on even after death but when we want to come back we find a new vessel. If we do not believe in something does it not exist? Is UFO's one person invasion from long ago and now everyone thinks it is true. The final thought of the day... Are people real or the figment of somethings imagination. 

Lawnmowers

Well I finally did it, got Cheryl so mad that she bought me a reel mower to mow my 1.4 acre lot. I wonder how long it will take to mow my grass. She got feed up with the broken mower every three weeks this time the engine had to be replaced. I have had this curse put on me so that I am not able to keep a lawnmower running. When I was a kid I would break the lawnmower every time I touched it. If t did not break when first touch then it would fall apart while mowing. Had one that I was almost done with the yard and the handle broke off, and then rolled back at me. Thank the Lord that it stopped running at the same time. My parents got tired of buying a new mower every week so they also bout a reel mower for me. Did not break that one, it worked up to the time we left the house. Well the yard is too tall for the mower, but I just got off the phone with the repair shop and they will be delivering the riding mower tonight. Hopefully before the sun sets and it rains so I can mow the grass that is knee high

Life and projects

Well I have been seeing things and worried about people following me. I swear that there are people in sitting in the trees that are waiting for me to get alone so they can kill me. I have been afraid to go out and do thing because of it Cheryl keeps telling me no one wants to kill me but  Can not stop thinking that is not true. The other thing is that the voices keep telling me that no one likes me so I should kill myself, and the saying to anyone that will listen that I should be killed. I do not think anyone is listing to them. I keep thinking that people can hear them but Cheryl keeps trying to convince me that no one can hear them except me, but I can not seem to think that is true.

So I am making a pair of socks for two people at my club and I also have to make a pair of boot cuffs. I have known since last Christmas but there are times that I do not feel like doing anything but veg out and do nothing. I have some projects to do for m-i-l and s-i-l. I have their project that I have not been wanting to do I think that I am done doing projects for veryone and just doing what I want to do.

So I have been neglecting my things that need to get done for the week but I am going to do it today and try to get it done I have to try and do a little every day.

Life and times

So I have been smoking he e-cig for the past 3 years and it is better than the real ones. I no longer smell bad and my teeth are slowly getting lighter. I still smoke the tobacco on acastion but not very often. 

Times are tough

Well it has been awhile I still see things, me and the doctor are slowly getting me right on with meds. The thing is that I do not like taking it. The meds keep me up all night and sleep late. I am charging the battery to the lawnmower, so I can mow the grass. It ran out of gas the other day put gas in it and the battery died. 

Things that go though my head.

Well got up at 0645 and feeling tired do not need to get Cheryl up until 0800. The day is going good, nice sunny morning the weather calls for random showers, which would be good for the wild fire that is in the county just South West of where I am. It seems that the news is on 5 minutes then a 10 minute commercial. 

Ramblings

So today I awoke at 0800 and felt fine until I read my Journal and got mad all over again. Got a lot of cards from a friend. I wish I had money to buy cards, I think that is one of the reasons I can not play very well. I have limited funds and everyone that I play with buys cards and boxes of cards so they think they have the best decks. They also play combos that lock up the board. So one of my friends wants a blanket made. Still have no idea what to get my dad for fathers day. 

Ramblings

Went fishing yesterday, caught a Spanish mackerel. I used my new Sabiki pole and caught a lot of bait fish. I stayed out from 5 to 9 and had a lot of fun. I can not wait for the next trip. So on the agenda today is a good game of magic. Some time this week I think that I will go visit with my parents. Hurricane season started yesterday. I Pray that one does not hit anywhere. Well the rain is going and the dog is hiding. I played poorly in magic and had very little fun. I really need to get better.

Magic The Gathering

Well I have decided to cut down my magic cards to 1 of each one. I do not need more if I am not going to play anything other than commander. the problem come from the fact that I been collecting since 1998. I still am not very good, the game is fun to play, but when you always lose the game it  starts to get a little depressing. I am done with white so I made a all white deck. It seems I will have fun with it. Losing at commander is a lot more fun then losing in standard. You play with 4 player a legendary creature as the commander and then 99 cards that are the same color as the commander and there can not bee any more then ne of any card.

Past 2 years

So for the past two years I have not been feeling all that good, between voices and seeing things. But I have been knitting and crocheting a lot made a blanket and gave it to the vet made a nice flower garden and set up an awning. We got a new manufactured home. I have been depressed for a while now, and I have been getting angry more lately. We have had a lot of our four legged children pass away. It makes me sad and then I can not function. I have also pretty much given up cigarettes . I use e-cig most of the time. I am able to breath a lot better now. It took some time to switch and I started out at 18 mg of nicotine, and now I am down to 6 mg. I am hoping that I can quit this year. Have not been playing magic the gathering all that much lately or been fishing all that much. I sometimes fill like getting out of the house but do not going anywhere. I have also stopped drinking regular coffee and now drink decaf. been feeling a little better since then.